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It’s 2011 Bitches!!!

9 Jan



Ok so I know it’s been a minute since I got on here and rant about random things. What can I say the end of 2010 was crazy! Well first lets start by saying HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ME!! Yes I made it to the quarter century mark and I must say I felt so many emotions all at once. I went from happy to depress to ecstatic to wanted to shot myself and etc. I think I went thru a quarter century crisis; yea it wasn’t pleasant. The day of my birthday started off so bad (and yes I cried on my birthday boo woo) to an actual great time.  I won’t get into too many details about that day,but  I’m just glad it’s behind me. The month of december was full of surprises and oh shit moments and me wanted to kill a few people >evil grin< but I made it out alive (lol).  I must say I was really disappointed in a few people and I realize some people are not who you think they are.  But I have certainly moved on and I am more aware of the company I keep and I also feel I’ve changed somewhat in the last month. I didn’t make a new years resolution because I usually don’t follow it but I just told myself I will better myself this year. First being is getting a new job (anyone who lives in NY and know who is hiring please contact me). I’m going to try to blog more this year and hopefully have my website up by April 2011, just looking for someone to help me build the site. Anywho  Ima end it on that note and like Yeezy says “toast to all the asshole  and douche bags” its our year!!!


Truth is everyone uses each other……

4 Oct
So I had a random thought while I was riding the train this morning and listening to Jazmine Sullivan lions, tigers, and bears, and came to the conclusion that everyone uses each other. From the most minor things as getting a cup of coffee for someone or getting the mail, to big things like co signing for a car or borrowing a large amount of money. But I think everyone reading this can agree with me that at one point in their life they used someone just for the companionship. We string someone along, someone who we don’t even like that much just so we can have someone around. Some do it for the sex (most), or some just don’t want to be lonely. But at least one point in our lives the tables had turn on us and we fall victim to being the rebound or the jump off. Sometimes we take being used from that person we really liked or loved, just to be close to them. Eventually most wake up and realize that hello that person doesn’t want you anymore or your just a toy to them. Some of us move on and some stick around because they don’t want to be alone. I for one rather be alone then stick around knowing I’m being used. Before I use to stick around because I was afraid I will never meet anyone and I will be alone forever (I sort of think like that still) but I’m much more stronger. I do slip up from time to time and call up the ex and say hey you wanna come over in the morning (we all got needs). But at the end of the day you can’t lose focus and you got to realize things between you and that person will never be the same, it can either get better or worst, up to the 2 people. Either way we use people for sex, money, companionship, business, etc. We just got to remember our limits and try not to hurt that person feelings (which happens anyways). So my advise to everyone is watch porn and play with yourself. Do this until you can find someone who is on the same page as you. Remember to lubricate…..




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Chrissy current events

27 Sep

So I haven’t been able to write that often as I like to, between traveling 2 hrs just to get to work and then spending 10 hrs at work,  to take another 2 hrs just to get home it takes a lot out of me. My days off I just want to lay in bed all day but can’t do that because I got other responsibilities that unfortunately I don’t get paid for.

 So just to bring you up to speed I broke my no drinking for a month or more because I had to celebrate. I got my LICENSE!! YAY ME!! Ok so to the people who don’t live in New York, getting your license is like any other thing. But to a 24year old New Yorker (that’s right it took me that long) it’s like getting a certificate from school or something.  It’s not a big thing to have a license in New York because there is public transportation, but when you do get it you feel like you’re the shit. I know people who live in NY their whole life without even having a permit let alone a driver’s license.  So my reason for drinking is that, plus I’m just a social drinker 🙂

Other than that I still suck when it comes to the other things in my life (love, career, money, etc.) Things I will be working on asap……..Till next time


A few of my favorite quotes that get me thru s***

2 Sep

Look at life as an energy economy game. Each day, ask yourself, Are my energy expenditures (actions, reactions, thoughts, and feelings) productive or nonproductive? During the course of my day, have I accumulated more stress or more peace?–unknown

Don’t cry because its over, smile because it happened.

God, if I can’t have what I want, let me want what I have.– unknown

Keith Ellis, Bootstraps
Like the elephant, we are unconscious of our own strength. When it comes to understanding the power we have to make a difference in our own lives, we might as well be asleep. If you want to make your dreams come true, wake up. Wake up to your own strength. Wake up to the role you play in your own destiny. Wake up to the power you have to choose what you think, do, and say.


Brian Dyson, CEO of Coca Cola Enterprises from 1959-1994
Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling five balls in the air. You name them – work, family, health, friends, and spirit – and you’re keeping all of these in the air. You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back. But the other four balls – family, health, friends, and spirit are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged, or even shattered. They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life.

A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway. — Fr. Jerome Cummings

Remember, the greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends. — Cindy Lew


One loyal friend is worth ten thousand relatives.”
— Euripides (408 B.C.)


“Love is rarer than genius itself. And friendship is rarer than love.” — Charles Peguy


In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.
-Martin Luther King, Jr. (1929-1968)  


Morrie Schwartz, in “Tuesdays with Morrie” by Mitch Albom
So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even when they’re busy doing things they think are important. This is because they’re chasing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.


Fr. Alfred D’Souza
For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin — real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way. Something to be got through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.


 The only love worthy of a name is unconditional.
-John Powell


The state of your life is nothing more than a reflection of your state of mind.
-Dr. Wayne W. Dyer


Anthony J. D’Angelo, The College Blue Book
Promise yourself to live your life as a revolution and not just a process of evolution.


The word LOVE

2 Sep
Something I wrote 4 years ago. Wow wasn’t I in a different place in my life, I sort of miss that Chrissy lol…….
It’s crazy how the little things in life can have such a big impact on people, such as words as I love you, or I care for you. These words can brighten up a person day or push someone away if they don’t feel the same.  I for one felt the power of these words just as many people have in this world. These words can bring up feelings in people who is out of their norm. It can make a man decide to give up his player ways and settle down with his girlfriend or boyfriend (have to be open-minded it’s 2006). It can also have someone go completely insane and decide to go out and kill someone because that person was trying to hurt their love one or in some cases kill someone because that person didn’t love them back. These words can push a person far over the edge and lose any sense of reality with the real world.
    I have many acquaintances but little friends and I’m very close the ones I do label has my true friends. I listen to their problems and there everyday struggles and it’s funny how life can pull us in many directions. They have everyday struggles such as loving a person who don’t love them back or putting up with the bullshit that there significant other puts them thru. And we all think one way or other why they just can’t let go. It’s so easy to leave your job or drop out of school, leave your parents house but it’s so hard to walk away from the person or thing we love. All it take is a couple of words
as I don’t want to be with you no more or drastic measure such as changing your number, email address, or even moving. Even if that person put you thru hell and back, we seem to hold on to this person because we felt we gave so much of our self. We allowed our self to love this person. We gave months, years, even decades to this person and things start to crumble at your feet and your relationship starts to go sour. But we feel we open up a part of our heart only a few can have and it’s so hard to let go. Crazy how a feeling call love can make you do the strangest things and believe me I did things I thought I would never do but did because I was in love.
    But on a brighter note love can bring out the best in people. It can make you change your life for the better and have a great impact on your life. It can make you feel things you thought you never would and do things for a person you thought you never would. It can make you do someone laundry, cook, clean, travel long distance to see them and etc. I for one done all these things for the person I love and don’t mind because it brings out a feeling of satisfaction for me. It makes me feel like these little things can show the person how much you care for them. Some might take the little things one does for another for granted but I try not to. After my last relationship I took all these things into consideration and learn to appreciate the little things. Now I’m in a new relationship I try not take my old and bad habits with me but it’s hard sometimes. Sometimes I say things I don’t mean when I’m mad so now I just try to hold my tongue and just listen.  But sometimes bad habits are hard to give up and it affects my relationship at times.  But I learn to be humble and apologize for my mistakes. A very big step for me when I am use to being stubborn and even when I’m wrong, I’m still right. I approve a whole lot over the past two years and learn how to let things flow, learn how to be patient and live life. I also realize too much too soon does more damage than good.  I feel my life is at a slow pace right now and don’t know what the next day well bring but I’m content at this time in my life. Even if I feel like I should be doing more with my life I want to approve on the little things first then take the big steps. I use to think what was the purpose of being on this earth and what I should do with my life. I felt empty inside because I always had a plan, a next step and my life was at a halt. But I learn to stop and smell the roses (metaphorically speaking) and enjoy the ride this crazy life has install for me.
    To my family, my friends and love ones thanks for confiding in me and telling me things you wouldn’t want anyone else to know. Thanks for letting me listen to your problems and taking my advice afterward. You made me realize that I do have people who care and love me. I am grateful for being part of your life and sharing the little moments and big events life brings to us. There was one point in my life I felt I wasn’t needed on this earth and wanted to give up, but because of my love ones I had a purpose. Even when I was at my lowest point in my life I got up slowly but surely and succeeded against all the odds. There still going to be a lot of heart ache, drama, joy and pain but we all would get thru it because you have me and I have all of you. Even if it’s not many of you I still feel bless and loved. This word love comes into play again and you can see why this simple word packs a whole lot of meaning into it. Even if its joy, happiness, or fear it’s a feeling we will never forget and will never go away.

No Sleep= Someone might get hit in the face

16 Aug

Have you ever woke up in the morning and was just angry. Angry because your still tired, angry because you don’t want to go to work or take care of what you need to take care of. Like if someone was standing next to you at that very moment, you will punch them in the face. Yea I’m sitting on the bus feeling like that at this exact moment. Not a good thing… Watch out old people…

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When to call it quits

10 Aug

Usually my blogs are about funny, random, everyday things. But sometimes life comes at you so incorrectly you can’t even attempt a smile even if you try. Many of my very close friends know what I’ve been going thru lately and the issue that’s been reoccurring but I finally learn to let go. Quickly I want to touch basis on how serious addiction can really be. People will never understand the toll it takes on a person mentally when your dealing with someone with any type of addiction. How one minute you can love and care deeply about a person and when their under the influence, you just want to run far away. When do you decide to say enough is enough and stop helping a person or stop being there for them? My point was when they decided they didn’t want to help themselves at all anymore. Even though I wish I can turn my emotions off and completely forget about this person I can’t. But I did learn to just say f*** it and keep it moving. All I can do now is say a silent prayer….